要的是

我要的是

你自己删掉

你自己放下

我不想逼你

逼得越紧

被恨得越深

love the way you lie at first

I know you was care about my feelings
but please also care for my feelings after I know the truth
and I know Im too

回报吗? 所以当我得知事实, 我的心却不痛 只有冷

当你问起我的过去,

只因那些对我来说

已经完全的不重要

所以我可以大方的回答你

你所有的疑问

我不会瞒你

不会欺骗你我的过去

因为我当下在意的

只有你

 让你安心 让你选择相信我

由于我想让你知道

我现在的心里满满的 都是你

所以 我把我的全部告诉你

让你选择着

在另外一边,

既然我会不介意的问起

准备接受你的过去

那 你的负气是否 要告诉我

你还 在意着?

放不下  想保护着?

你的不告知

同时 只让我产生更多的自我猜疑

我知道你要投诉我的不成熟

但想让你知道的是

我的心情

-男朋友

1.)    每天睡觉之前一定要给她打一个电话，不管你有多晚 ，
    因为她一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。

2.)    就算你再忙，你也不能一连好几天不给她短信或电话，

    或者对她忽冷忽热，因为这样会让她很恐慌，是不是自己又做错了什么。

    任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。

3.)     就算她跟你无理取闹你也要原谅她，
    因为她那是在测试你在乎她的程度。因为她那是缺乏安全感

4.)    你要经常去她的个人主页，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的记录也会很开心。

5.)    你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你一定要很开心，因为她的不想就是想。

6.)    和她发短信时，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你是在乎她的。

7.)    对她对你已经说过一万遍的，不要不耐烦的说知道了知道了，
    要很感动的说谢谢，因为那真的都是她出自内心的关心。

8.)    当她关心你时，不要说出：原来你也会关心我这样的话。
    这样会很伤她心，因为这对于她来说是一种很大的否定。

9.)    当你和她打电话时，你一定要她先挂你的电话，即使她说了一百遍要你先挂。

10.) 千万要记得她都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。

11.) 即使最后你们还是不能走到一起，记得，一定要跟她说清楚，
     分手一定要让她说出，因为她是为你折翅的天使。

12.) 分手后，千万不要再对她说出以后还是朋友这样的话，因为这样她会觉得自己很悲哀。



男朋友就是每天不厌其烦的陪你吃饭、送送你上下班的那个人；

男朋友就是虽然身上没什么钱，也会请你吃饭的那个人；

男朋友就是早晨你醒来时第一个想到的那个人；

男朋友就是能跟你打电话聊到半夜都舍不得挂的那个人；

男朋友就是在你最艰难的时候陪伴在你身边的那个人；

男朋友就是为了不让你担心，无论出了什么事都要自己默默 承担的那个人；

男朋友就是手机里总是存满你给他发的短信，直到信箱满了都舍不得删掉的那个人;

男朋友就是无论你是不是漂亮都会夸赞你漂亮的那个人；

男朋友就是常察看你的手机纪录，确信跟你常联系的都是你的女性朋友才放心的那个人；

男朋友就是在你任性、耍小脾气时，也会忍住脾气不会冲你发火的那个人；

男朋友就是看到你流泪时，为你擦去泪水给你一个温暖拥抱的那个人；

男朋友就是就算你犯了错误，也舍不得骂你的那个人；

男朋友就是可以在车站等你很久也不会介意的那个人；

男朋友就是明明最不喜欢逛街，还能陪你一家一家的逛到你觉得满意为止的那个人；

男朋友就是有着宽厚的肩膀可以让你随时依靠的那个人；

男朋友就是吃饭时放慢速度等你的那个人；

男朋友就是总是让你走在马路内侧的那个人；

男朋友就是过马路时会紧紧拉住你的手的人；

男朋友就是就算情人节也不会买花给你，让你对他又爱又气的那个人；

男朋友就是深夜为你开着手机的那个人；

男朋友就是当你读到这篇文章时立刻会想到的那个人.... ni

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On How to Get What You Want and Want What you Have...

Better Communication Thanks to John Gray

 

http://www.marsvenus.com/thankyouletters.php

 

Thanks to Joshua 

to introduce me this

To let me know more about 

what we all actually wants

教训

今天,

他妈咪 问我 昨天他去了哪里
因为他驾车载几个朋友出去了

我回答‘不知道’ actually I knew  (¬‿¬)

他妈咪教我说 ：
[ 改天他去哪里你跟着去! 他去哪里你说你也要跟, 不然他出去惯了就到处乱跑了.]

我笑着回应. 嘻嘻

我很想跟他妈咪投诉说 他的不好

但, 忍着.. 留着下次吧！

(◡‿◡✿)  女人吖~  不好得罪的


Thanks aunty for buying me a bag of chestnuts always on Friday.
and, Thanks his sis for buying me foods sometimes.
so Touched when I got it from them.
Appreciated that they take care of me very well. Thanks alot

Mooncake Festival

 18/o9/2o1o

We played candles together outside the house

We gossiped, We joked

and A cutie brat made the love shape candles showed to me.

Thanks ya ;)

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

 He took me photo with I didnt ready to pose.

 His round turn!

22/o9/2o1o

His mama asked the brat to call us to go outside the house

to see the fireworks display which they were ready to set off

the colourful fireworks we have seen

and then, we all played candles again.

He asked: 做么今天没有月亮的?

with my answer: 你看着我, 我的脸还不够圆不够亮?

He Laughed!

and, He made these candles shape to me with the cutie brat

  A love with An arrow, clearly? I dont think so :p

but realy thanks to their works of art

I do LOVE u both too ♥

Soon, it was rain

It made us to get inside the house n stopped the activities outside.

anyway

Happy Mooncake Festival for me.

The winter warmer

Rose Iced Tea

Chicken Speghetti

 

Chicken Crunchy crunch

as usual .. my Fettuccine Carbonara

with the my Mine

21/o9/2o1o

Auto-City

Butterworth

微笑道

他的妹妹: 妈, 如果爸爸打你, 你会怎样?

妈妈: 他敢? 我说好了的 不可以打我 他打我就走.

他的妹妹: 你跟爸爸讲的时候, 他讲什么?

妈妈笑着: 他说: 我哪里敢, 你这么凶..


Just feel warm on this ,so sweet (:

blew

Our dinner time

留给谁吃?

留给老婆吃LOL

He was blowing on his mee,

put in my mouth then..

Luv ya  xoxo

Drive

The day after wedding dinner of my friend,
yong sheng was naughty to get in the car because of I was still inside there.

I took his pic to take it down for the proof, he took me back then.. aha!
He said : 姐姐, 我在你去怡保, 不过我不会路喔.
so cute right? haha he is funny
He kept diving me to somewhere.. LOL

 

 

mee

I sent mgs to my mine because he still outside at the very night,

: after U coming back, cook mee for my stomuch.

He is kindly on that day

A very soon, He reached home

and Asked me to choose which brand of mee I perfer with his smily face,

He cook for me then.. 

He said that it is fully hearted inside the mee.. 

He cook for me with a lots of loves..

giggle

We shared with each other

It was delicious btw ❤

Thank yoU

How to be a Confident Woman

For year’s I suffered low self esteem

and confidence in a relationship which started very good but ended up being a nightmare from hell. At one point, I could not even look at myself in the mirror as I felt so insecure in the way I looked.I decided to train as a life coach, and started developing my self esteem and confidence.

I realise that we all have to accept ourselves for who we are. When God created us, he made each and everyone of us unique and special. There is no one who looks like you or even has the same DNA as you.

So love yourself, and doesn’t let the words of an individual put you down.

Who is a confident woman?

There are few things more beautiful on a person than confidence. Women who wear it radiate strength, passion and conviction.

A confident woman is not afraid to be herself. Plain and simple and beautiful, or flamboyant and fabulous.

A confident woman knows who she is. She understands her purpose, and her gifts. She knows that there are certain things only she can contribute to this world, at this time, in this place.

A confident woman   knows her style. It doesn't matter whether you prefer zebra stripes and pink fur, or to be cloaked in grays and subtle greens.

Whether you like tennis or Victorian teas; Shopping or hiking; or all of the above. What is most important is to be you.

That means stretching and stepping out. If you're supposed to be on the front lines, be there. Don't step back. If you are blessed with supportive skills, be the best supporter you can ever be. Expand your skills. Celebrate

How to improve your esteem and confidence

1. Face your fears - they aren't as bad as you think they are. Facing your fears increases your confidence.

2. Forget your failures - learn from them. Avoid making the same mistakes again but don't limit yourself by assuming you failed before so you can't succeed this time. Try again, you're wiser and stronger.  Don't be trapped in the past!

3. Know what you want and ask for it. You deserve your dreams to come true.

4. Reward yourself when you succeed. No-one else will! Isn't everything easier when you take time to help yourself?

5. Talk - We often make assumptions about a situation or person which are not true. Your attitude and behaviour can be negatively affected so if you have any doubt or question ask and don't assume you know why or how.

6. Don't be defeated! Try something else. You are not going to be defeated by one failed attempt are you? Doesn't everyone fail before they succeed? All you need is a different approach. Good luck! I wish you happiness and success

Raise your self esteem

• Focus on the parts of your body
  
  
  you like
• Dress to emphasis what you have and look good
• Stop comparing yourself to others
• Start an exercise program
• Eat healthy food and stay away from diets
• Play sports as often as you can
• Walk as much as you can
• Don't smoke at all or drink too much
• Write down compliments you receive about how you look
• Straighten up, smile and look straight ahead - you'll look and feel more confident   

The author

Queen Genny

学着

女朋友生气要忍着
男朋友生气要哄着
·

女朋友吃醋要抱她
男朋友吃醋要吻他
·

女朋友哭了要逗她
男朋友哭了要陪他
·

女朋友累了要背她
男朋友累了要体贴
·

女朋友错了要原谅
男朋友错了要原谅

（因为爱和尊重是相互的嘛）

女朋友生日要记得，

男朋友生日要想着，

女朋友、男朋友由陌生到相逢！

男朋友、女朋友由相遇到相识！

女朋友、男朋友由相知到相恋！

男朋友、女朋友由相约到相爱！

女朋友、男朋友相互尊重相依相偎！

然后、然后永远幸福！

 

男孩，你永远都要记住，如果某天女孩先和你说‘分手’那么、你千万别放手．

因为，她不是 真的想放手，只是想知道自己在你心中的分量有多重！

想让你在乎她，留下她。。。（留或不留，在你）

男孩说‘分手’他也许是真的累了，真的累了。。。

女孩此时抱抱他说我会乖乖的，不要离开好嘛？（他留不留下在他，你留不留他在你。）

别后悔就OK了！！……

不要轻易去爱，爱了就不要轻易再离开

1、如果你的男朋友在你面前哭了，无论什么原因，请抱紧他，再反抗也要抱紧，
男人受伤的心比什么都难以复原；

2、如果你的男朋友指出了你的不是，请不要总是嫌他唠叨，若不是因为在乎他不会说你；

3、如果你的男朋友不理你，不要也学他，这正是考验你们的时候，
“脸皮厚”的精神此时不发扬又更待何时；

4、如果你的男朋友不听你的话，转身走了，一定要追上他,真的还爱着，
丢下他一个人你又如何放心呢；

5、如果你的男朋友说“你走吧，我不想理你了”，千万不要相信，男人最是口是心非，
其实那是他最需要你的时候；

6、如果你的男朋友生气了，说心情不好不想吃饭，千万不要问他想干吗想吃什么，
他一定说什么都不要，买好你记忆里他最爱吃的东西（最好是有包装 的，这样等他心情好了再吃也不会冷），
但一定不要以自己也不吃来威胁他；

7、如果你的男朋友对你们说狠话，请保持三秒钟不说话，然后搂过他的肩，
笑笑说：“老公，你讲话的声音真可爱！”

珍惜你们的男朋友，不要把他们想的坏想的复杂，男人要的永远最简单！

有时候，妥协不是一种认输，是一种洋溢理解的姿态；
原谅不是一种懦弱，是一种写满珍惜的胸怀...

 -对不起

我觉得世界上最难的事之一就是对自己的恋人说“对不起”。
我也不知道这是为什么。我们可以毫不犹豫地对陌生人说“对不起”，对小动物说“对不起”，甚至对路边的一朵野花说对不起，却那么难以向身边的人认个 错、说声“对不起”。

或许这是因为我们与我们亲近的人之间有着太多的历史、太多的情感故事？这些历史就像一块石头，镇压在我们的潜意识里，让我们的人生变得沉重，无法保 持一颗赤子心。
我曾尝试着想要跳脱出这个人生陷阱。可我发现，像我这样有主见、爱逞强的人要做出退让实在是很难的事，尤其是在愤怒的争吵中。

后来我无意中看到一个故事，这个故事的其他部分我都不感兴趣，唯独有一点我觉得很有创意。那就是男主人公和女主人公约定好，当他俩之间谁惹对方生气 又不好意思说“对不起”的时候就用说“普罗旺斯”来代替，而另一方听到“ 普罗旺斯”时就要停止生气和争吵，双方积极正面地来解决问题。在这个故事中，法国普罗旺斯对男女主人公的爱情有着见证的意义，所以他们选择了用这个词来代 替“对不起”。

有一句老话说“退一步海阔天空”，从某一种程度上来说，作出退让的人比不肯退让的人更伟大。其实恋人之间的很大多数所谓矛盾和争吵，说一句“对不 起”就可以解决。假如你和你的恋人恰好与我一样都有着“比较爱逞强”的臭毛病，那就在你俩之间约定用个别 的什么词来替代说”对不起“吧。要知道，说”普罗旺斯”可要比说“对不起”简单多啦。
寻找那些对你俩的感情具有积极意义的词汇，当提到这 个词时，你俩能马上感受到这份感情的美好，就像“普罗旺斯”对于故事中的男女主人公那样。一旦约定，就要真正去执行，真正让这个词发挥效用、成为你们之间战争的休止符。

对不起 ~ 川

 而我选择在他面前
放下自己的尊严面子
坦然去认错
坦然去面对自己的过错

Hmm

The day before yesterday

I was contact with my secondary school classmate again

We were chat at the facebook at first

Msn then,

I like her so much!

and Miss her so much

She taught me something that Im worrying for

and gave me some examples about hers.

Really a lots of thanks to JENY CHIAM.

She said

: do not care for him so much, lets go!

: always cheerful!

: do not think too much alone!

: spend ur time with ur friends!

: what the girls's taught are totally different with guys!

Actually I know this but Im still.

however I really appreciated to get it from her

After the reminder,

I feel like awaken to myself

no more ideologism.

I know he might happy to see this.

Something really have to let them go!

and

Get back to my own identities.



白羊

白羊座终极完美分析 

'白羊吗？太恐怖了！他们脾气大、暴力、瞧不起人，还是躲 远些、小心为妙！'
如果你这末认为，那你可能就会失去一个肯为你付出生命的人。受火星的灼烧，白羊决不是人们想象中的那种冷血狂魔！
白羊的内心世界有两个：恨的世界与爱的世界。白羊的外显世界与内心世界是同步的，只不过由于他的'恨'意更昭显，以至于掩盖了他爱的那一面。
白羊很善良，心中总是想着别人，很多时候愿意委屈自己而成全别人，但由于白羊不能掩饰自己的情感，凡事争锋，有什末不满就会立刻表露出来，于是不能将美 事做尽，落个彻底的好人，反而最后还招来一鼻子灰！比如，白羊想看爱情连续剧，你想看科教片，于是你们就开始为了看什末而打假。如果你硬看科教片，则白羊 会大吵大骂，最后'砰'的把电视给关上！白羊心里想，电视又不是你一个人的，凭什末只许你看不许我看？！你不让我看，你也别想看！但如果白羊占了上风，看 上了爱情连续剧，而你默默的走开，则白羊一会儿又会觉得过意不去，心疼你，怕你不高兴，于是让你看。一句话，白羊是重形式不重实质，极度不能容忍别人挑战 他的权威。

其实，白羊是那种死要面子活受罪的人。面子，比白羊的生命还重要！白羊最不能容忍的就是别人贬低他、瞧不起他！谁 要是对白羊吼几嗓子，白羊能吼谁24个小时。比如，上司若是责备白羊不当，则白羊就会气势汹汹的反责备上司，而且责备的更欢。上司责备他一句，他能责备上 司10句！！当上司解雇了这个不肖员工以后，白羊不但不伤心，反而还有种壮烈感：'虽然丢了工作，但是丢得值！我当着那末多人的面骂了上司一顿，真是露 脸！恩，同事们现在一定还在议论我的英雄事迹……'白羊边重新找工作边想，想着想着，自己便不禁暗笑起来，接着便是昂首阔步，得意洋洋，觉得自己真是了不 起、不可一世！

白羊爱面子，都爱到了成癖的地步。白羊希望别人喜欢他、爱戴他、吹捧他，最好能对他前呼后拥、关怀备至。白羊 男们总是感慨自己为何没能当上总统，白羊女们则从来都认为自己是总统夫人的料儿，只是不小心找错了男朋友！白羊总觉得自己是个天才，只是因为怀才不遇才沦 落到今天这种无名小卒的地步。比如，白羊认为自己天生就是个艺术家，只是张艺谋导演没发现他。若是张导发现他，他一定比巩丽要出色的多！由于白羊喜欢那种 高高在上的感觉，所以，只要你平素多吹捧着他、赞美着他，则他便会'累死不知死'的对你，你喜欢他怎样他就会怎样。

白羊很温 柔，只要你没惹着他，你可以随便与他嬉戏。但如果你要是有什末一不小心的举动触犯了他，则最好赶快给自己准备个棺材。比如，白羊与你打情骂俏，很开心的气 氛，双方都乐在其中。忽然，你一不小心，出手重了些，打痛了白羊，则白羊就会立刻瞪大眼睛、提高嗓门，把你骂个狗血喷头，甚至再狠狠的还你两个更重的巴 掌。此时，欢乐的气氛一下陷入了僵局，弄得你心里别扭至极。但白羊却认为，闹归闹，你也总得有个限度吧，出手没轻没重，真是讨厌，我的漂亮的手都被你打红 了！想着想着，白羊会更生气，弄不好再轰炸你一次～～～不过，过了10分钟，白羊又开始和你有说有笑，好象什末事情也没发生过。白羊凡事都来得快，去得也 快，一般不记仇。

你也许会说：'白羊不记仇？怎末可能！他们总是抓住别人的错误不放！'但是，白羊确实不记仇，他们抓住别人 的错误不放，实际上是为了时刻提醒对方，不要再犯同样的错误！比如，白羊的爱人有外遇，但经过一番周折，两个人又和好了。那末，在以后的生活中，白羊会时 常责骂爱人当初是怎末的抛弃自己、自己是多末多末的不幸、自己的心灵受到了多大多大的创伤！白羊之所以会这末做，主要有两个原因：一方面，每当白羊想起这 些，就会十分的激火、生气，于是非骂爱人一顿不可，以解心头之恨；另一方面，白羊这末做是要时刻提醒爱人，以后不能再有外遇了，变相给爱人敲警钟！

白 羊是那种把自己的快乐建筑在别人的痛苦之上的人，因为白羊爱满处宣扬别人的溴事。比如，他会在大庭广众之下，说你们小时候一起玩耍时你不小心尿了裤子，更 或者，他会对你的心上人说你有爱挖鼻孔的习惯（偶服了白羊了～～～）。但是，白羊并不觉得说这些有什末不可以，因为在白羊心里，这些都是那末的美好，是童 年的回忆、是人生百态的小花絮。他们说你的溴事，仅仅是因为他们觉得好玩，觉得很甜美，能给人带来乐趣，把别人的目光都集中到自己身上来，让别人认为自己 是开心果！白羊完全没有挖苦你、拆你爱情道路的意思，只是结果往往……

白羊天生气质非凡，人中龙凤。白羊的人生宗旨是'活出 自己'。由于白羊天性中有桀骜的一面，于是在与人相处的时候，就不自觉的流露出一种傲慢的气息。由于白羊的这种不自觉的摆谱儿，以至于不了解白羊的人都躲 着白羊，因为他们觉得白羊看不起人。但如果有个机会接触了白羊，则人们又会认为白羊是那末的好接近、那末的好心肠。白羊自己觉不出自己的傲慢，心中只是暗 暗纳闷：为什末别人总躲着我，我是多末的平易近人、和蔼可亲啊！！！

白羊多没主见，耳朵根儿软，自己做好坏分析的能力很差。 白羊极富正义感，喜欢让不公正的事情昭雪。但是，由于白羊的没主见，使得白羊的正义感带有一厢情愿的色彩。比如，白羊认为从一而终是种正义，于是，任何发 生婚外情的人都会受到白羊的谴责与蔑视。白羊认为，我一生下来，父母、老师就告诉我要从一而终，难道我坚持从一而终还会有错误吗？！白羊不明白，任何的一 桩善也是一桩恶，正义与否远非能用是否从一而终而简单定论。这也可从一个侧面反映出白羊是个简单的人，任何复杂的事情到白羊手中都会变得简单、易行（人生 能有这种魄力也实在是一件美事）。

白羊对待感情亦是反应神速。若你向白羊示意爱慕之情，则白羊若喜欢你，第二天你们便成了情侣；若白 羊不喜欢你，就会躲你远远的。你若穷追不舍，他还会一点面子不留的直指责你：'躲我远点，我不喜欢你！否则我打你！'（汗～～～）在白羊心中，喜欢就是喜 欢，讨厌就是讨厌，没那末多的的暧昧不清。

白羊喜欢那种有惊世骇俗之举的人，因为白羊觉得只有这种人才配得上自己。比如，你 们约会，到了吃饭的时间，你最好带白羊去钓鱼台吃，就算你的钱只够在钓鱼台喝瓶矿泉水，白羊也会因你的这个壮举而爱死你；你若带白羊去吃街头的麻辣烫，那 末你就做好被白羊蹬了的准备吧！

白羊的性欲很旺盛，但由于他们很顾及自己的面子，所以总是光想不练。换句话说，就是白羊的意 淫很严重。比如，在公共汽车上，身边坐着一个漂亮MM或GG，于是，白羊就开始对其产生了无尽的有关性的想象……由于白羊的行动力超强，所以做起爱来也是 超神速。

Behind these hazel eyes by Kelly Claekson

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

yoU & me

I asked him via facebook chatting small box

:' May I take pics with you?'

:' When? '

:' Right now with webcam.'

He turned to me and finally took with me.

Just dont think to make him to take more pics 

since he doesnt really like to shoot

bla bla bla..

night night zZ to you all

Have a very sweet dream which I hope so

Em-

I deeply despise to myself right now.
The recent minded:
Why I so desperately? tears
Why I am showing inferiority feeling easily because of you?
Am I bad looking? wtbl
and just realized what my friend told me last time is exactly correct.
Are you know you are always beside me?
I cann't accept those reasons that you gave me..
What I need but you dont..
and I Don't really want it every times before my seducement..
means what?
I have no the female charm so I have to add on? I am so Sorry.
just only One thing I get no Satisfy,
and this already made me -sigh & speechless enough.
I am appreciated the very First one month. Thank you.

Geez

Dont move!!

At 1st, I took the gun point his back and take pic.

He turned and asked me with his oddness.

:' 指着头嘛~'

I said :' 是hor~'

Then, I told him the plan of my edited as the pic above

He drolled then.

Happy days

What the pic he took for ..yuck

It's his turn ..hmph

Actually my fettucini carbonara is 100% tasty U guys know?

1. take pic properly la

2. again brat

3. I told u take properly, U forced me to do it for u

o5/o9

He accompanied me to Penang on Sunday which his working day too, and he was going to loss the salary on that day.

1st. U woke up early in the morning and went here and there to hand over your business.

2nd. U rushed to Penang for guarding me, accompanied me with ur unwell body.

3rd. U dropped me to my class, went to my hostel to clean up the room, waited for the time I finished the class and took me back.

I so appreciated to what the movements you did  for me that day ❤ 

and deeply sorry to make you madded again, that was my false and I really will maditate about it.

Besides, I hope you no more rude words to me,

such as Bullshit or scolding my mother even you are so hate me or angry me.

AnyOne does need respect, doesnt s/he ?

after my class I suggested to Queensbay, we ate, we shopped( he bought a new shirt which I like).

and, yep we end up the day after watching The cats and Dogs with 3D.

I know he is totally exhausted, so I wish my silly billy faces & actions could make him smile.

o6/o9

The day he felt uncomfortable, just left him at my hostel to take more rest.

I went breakfast with my another lover who is Li Shan!! soooo happy/ excited to meet up her!!

breakfast at bali hai before class,

and 3 of us headed to Gurney after class，Piranha together then!

afterthat, shopped a little while, is the time say ByeBye to my lovely Shan and got back to our hometown.

The happy days I had, The enjoyable days I had.

Thanks to both of my dearly love ❤ I had my days - xoxo

wait for Siew

to have another date!

Today

The Funny moment 

1.)While I was bathing in the washroom, his yonger brother was calling me outside the washroom,
he thought I was his eldest brother so I answered him I wasnt.
And, he told me he has to go tuition centre so he asked me to take care myself
and do not open the door for strangers. I snigger at it


2.)After bathing, I was listening music and online in the room,
the music I listened - 寂寞寂寞就好by Hebe,
meantime, he came back and peeked me after the door of the room!
I surprised and what I saw is - he is sook his head and said 不好 不好! I laughed immediately! LOL


3.)At night, his family came back from Ipoh, sure they finished shopped there.
and, he is went out to find his friend.
I online in the room as usual, his younger bro knocked the door and came in
: '姐姐, 你要拿一点去吃吗? ' his hands took a basket and it was full of rambutan & dugong (the fruits I like)
I super paise for it, why he took inside and asked me? I so so shameful
I asked him softly to take it outside because I shall get it later I go out from the room.
after a few mins, the 2nd knocked and came in was his youngest bro.
:' 姐姐, 那一点去吃啦...' he took to me from a shoe's box of dugong
:'okay ,够了, 等下大哥骂我, 怎么办?' I got the dugong from him
:' 你说爸爸给的, 你说爸爸给你吃的, 再拿多一点去吃..' He took more to me!
:'okay 谢谢你啊.' he got out then, I felt funny with him.
because he seems like a little pitiful boy and sale the dugong for me and promote the dugong for me. LOL




The Unfortunately moment

His pet dead! We shock! because it is mostly finishing change its skin, and quite okay
after it is dead, he is getting down and moody and moody.
He checked it out afterthat.

Used the chopsticks to open its mouth to take a look!

Its skin inside his mouth! Its dead because of this?

Its look!

Its underside

The long face me

The skin inside its mouth

Its forever bed!

my certain Life

I have lost myself since I stopped study in KL and get back to Penang.

and,

After the 2o1o Chinese New Year

I was really dont know how to walk to my future anymore,

I was stopped, I lost my way, I have no idea.

and,

I lived in BM(mama's house) for nothing until March.

I came back to Gerik to visit my grandma and lived with her

and around the time I began with him.

 afterthat, I stayed with him.

He was caring me all the time and taking his responsibilities to me.

I was dore on by him, I was warm.

Day to day,

I knew I have to plan

and I have to start my own life, get back to my future ways,

I found out a course to study in Penang ,

A very short term course.

and just having classes a few days per week.

so mostly I get back Penang for few days to attend my classes

the another days, I will stay beside him, 

or else he would drive me to Penang to accompany me there

and get back together.

I had just started study on July,

It means I did nothing after Chinese New Year to Jun

It's so so funny pity ,because I wasted my time ,right?

I really took many leave to myself.

and at the period of time, we had our days.

We were Gummed !

Just together a few months with him 

but we felt like we were already long time with each other.

and, of course we are the normal couple

we had the time we argued/ harder time ;

and we had the time we funned/ sweetness.

not just means he lets me win all the time (:

Besides, I like his family very much ❤

He had a very warm family, nice parents ,lovely siblings.

Sometime I pleasures with them

Sometime I closed myself in the room and online all the day.

His parents are sayang me so much more,

his mammy do not let me do any houseworks instead of he likes me to do something for this family.

his mammy would buy some foods I like to me.

His younger siblings are adoring me as well.

they asked me for homeworks

they asked me the questions about my privacy they are confusing.Lmao

they played/joked with me.

They are respect me no matter how.

I feel so appreciated to every things happened on me since I came here.

.Thank yours.

.Thanks God.

Smile -Uncle Kracker

You're better then the best

最好的也比不上你

I'm lucky just to linger in your light

我很幸运只是徘徊在你的光芒里

Cooler than the flip side of my pillow, that's right

当我翻过我枕头的另一边是只感觉淡冰冷, 就是这样

Completely unaware

完全不知道

Nothing can compare to where

你给我的是无与伦比的

You send me, lets me know that it's okay

让我了解这没什么

Yeah, it's okay

对！这没什么

And the moments where my good times start to fade

我美好的感觉开始消失

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

你让我的笑容像太阳, 让我掉下我的床

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

像鸟儿一样唱歌, 我的脑袋晕了

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

就像一个旋转的记录, 疯狂的星期日晚

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

你让我想傻瓜一样跳舞, 让我忘记呼吸

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

让我像黄金般闪亮, 如蜜蜂般嘈杂

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

你驾御了我的野性

Oh, you make me smile

噢, 你让我微笑

Even when you're gone,

即使你已经离开

Somehow you come along just like

不知你走了多久

A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack

我像行人道两边的话一样

And just like that

就这样

You steal away the rain, and just like that

被你偷走了的雨水, 就这样

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you

没有你的日子我不知如何度过

'Cause every time that I get around you

当我没一次拥抱你

I see the best of me inside your eyes

我看到我在你的眼中是最好的

You make me smile

你让我微笑

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile... ..